Sorry you're so upset. I hate to hear that anyone is that upset. I have known the feeling but I am doing better after working at it with God's help. Have you been working with a therapist? are you taking any kind of medication to help? Do you do any kind of exercise that helps at all? Do you have any good friends for support? Wishing you the best.

I know how you feel. Life is a struggle and I wonder when it will all end. The misery, the dread. You're not alone.

So what are you doing ABOUT your anxiety attacks and rage episodes? Are you investigating them, or are you just in a bit of a rut?

You have to move the needle out of the groove, or you'll keep on playing the same music forever. And I mean forever. So you have to confront your anger, and confront your anxiety, and face up to them and be honest about them and identify exactly what is going on - even if you don't want to.

And I don't think we ever want to. :)

Depressedrecluse if I can get over rape, incest, child abuse, school bullying, abusive boyfriends, bad marriages, ... bloody oath.

If I can get over that and laugh, then I say we can get over anything. I say nothing is insurmountable. I say anyone who says it is merely shows they haven't got to the top of the mountain yet. But I argue strongly that it's doable, and it's totally worth it. Because climbing that mountain leaves you stronger than living without adversity in a valley.

And I did find it was darkest before dawn. You have to press hard on the pimple to pop it. It takes a lot of pressure and it hurts. But when you pop it - RELEASE.

You're at the pimple popping stage where your life is intolerable to you. Keep that pressure on and you may be surprised at what squirts out and how bizarre it is that suddenly your life can be fine, on a dime, without a single thing in the real world having changed.

"You're at the pimple popping stage where your life is intolerable to you." -@bridgie101

Well...that is the #TRUTH... I.AM at that point...problem is everyone that helped me get to this point doesn't get it...and now they just want me to be the old person I was before...and I don't want to be that person anymore...that is not the true ME...and I am honestly so tired of being that person!!!

I am ANGRY ...and I honestly want to unleash my ANGER on MY whole world...because unless and until I do that... NO ONE will get it...no one will get that they are all partially to blame for the unhappy, irrational, enraged person that I have become!

UGH...okay, I am now working myself up into a frenzy, so I am going to quit now...I'll talk to y'all later.