DepressedRecluse
Status: I.AM Worthless! - I.AM Pointless!! - I.AM NOTHING!!!
Mood:
Horrible
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- Hey Guys...I accidently posted this in the Migraine group and now I can't post here for some reason... Please follow the link to my journal entry...read it...and let me know what you...
- Back in November of last year, I became my mother's primary caregiver... as best as I could being that I haven't been able to take care of myself, much less anyone else!!!...Anyway, back then my mom wasn't able to take care of herself alone, so she...
- Nothing...and I do mean NOTHING interests me...I can't think...I can't focus...I don't want to do anything-although I have plenty that I need to do!!!!....I just don't want to deal with anyone or anything...WHY ?....is it because I lost control and...
- I still don't care...don't want to do anything...take my meds day in and day out...and then I just sit and worry...I have things that I have to do...and I try...I try to force myself to do them...but I just get so frustrated and overwhelmed and my...
- I had a bad night...starting crying for no reason at all right before going to bed...had to get back up...go sit in my truck and just be sad...for about 15 minutes...then came back inside and went to bed...took a little while but finally went to...
- I have so much to do...that I don't know what to do...I know what I HAVE to do...but I don't want to do it!!!!.....none of it....so I feel guilty...cause I don't do what I need to do yet I don't have any desire to do it!!!!GOD!...that really is...
- Well, I do...but I don't...I screamed and yelled and asked GOD for help last night because I really didn't know what to do...The way I see it...my life is just falling apart...but when I look again, it's not...is that confusing?Let me try to...
- the problem is...wait for it... .... ....ME!Yep...that's right...I am my own worst nightmare...I don't know what I want to do...yet I want to do everything...and I can't!!!...I can't even take care of myself...This is really fucked up...I spend...
- I don't care...I DON"T CARE...I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!]i haven't cared for a very long time....and I am driving myself crazy trying to make myself care.....I've been awake since 4:30...trying to make myself care enough to get up and go help my...
- and i don't want to do anything to feel well...i just feel so sad....I had a pretty good dr's visit...healthwise...but I am still so sad...and I don't like asking for help...for anything....I used to be strong independent and self sufficient...and...
- yesterday...it was hurt and anger...today it's just an overwhelming feeling of sadnessand that feeling of not caring about anything...NOTHING...When I got home last night my husband was complaining cause he got overheated at work...I was like oh...
- ANGRY AT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE INCLUDING MYSELF!!!!!and I don't know how to get rid of this anger...it's not just a little here and there...it's been building for a good while now...years...I just pushed it all deep down and I guess now it's...
- Yesterday has got to be the worst day of my life seeing as my mom gave away my BabyKitty...BUT...today sure is a close second...it's close to 100 degrees out today...and stupid me got up and forced myself to get ready and head on out to my dr's...
- I certainly don't care about anything now....I am so hurt and sad that I don't know what to do...My mother gave my Baby Kitty away to her therapist!!!!!!!!!!I loved my BabyKitty...like my own child and now she's gone!....I gave BabyKitty to my mom...
- to go get me something to eat...and it's weird...but I don't care about anything...well it's weird to me... ,maybe not to you but it is to me...i am shaking on the inside...my blood is boiling....and my heart is racing...and i don't care about...