DepressedRecluse
Status: I.AM Worthless! - I.AM Pointless!! - I.AM NOTHING!!!
Mood:
Horrible
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- Help me Rhonda!...Help Help me Rhonda!!!!!! Do you know that song by the Beach Boys (i think)...that's the only line I remember but I wish I knew who the hell Rhonda is and I wish she would f'ing just HELP ME!!! I need help...but I can't bring...
- What I need to do, I don't do...what I want to do, I can't do...and...what I don't want to do, THAT is what I do!!! For some reason, I woke up with that running through my head this morning... My husband gave me some money yesterday...and I need to...
- but I haven't taken my meds in about two day (only because I am starting to run out and don't have the money to get the refills)...and...well...I think I feel a little better than when I was taking the meds regularly...like I said, I still don't...
- ok...so it took me all afternoon to get up the energy to go get dressed...get in my truck...DRIVE down to the corner store...buy me a can of soda and come right back home...take of my clothes and sit down at my desk and DO ABSOLUTELY...
- I need to get up and go to a recovery meeting...but I'm struggling to find the strength...and eneergy....god please please help me...give me the strength I need ...please....give me the strength to do what I know I need to do...please....
- I NEED to go back to work...but I can't ....I have all these stupid feelings of guilt and shame (see earlier post) that I can find the strength to even look and see if I am eligible to go back to work much less face my supervisors with the same ole...
- Yesterday, I posted quite a bit about how I have no feelings...I continue thinking and my brain keeps cycling through my mantras, thoughts, beliefs ect...and I am reminded how I messed up and failed...and how everything is just f'ed up!...then I...
- Wallowing in my depressive state...I completely forgot that I was supposed to go a memorial service today at 11. Now I have another thing to feel bad about. I so wanted to go pay my respects to this person...but I am so selfish ...thinking about...
- Just replied to another post that I have no feelings...and I don't!I'm can't feel happy, sad, proud, fear, lonely, nothing, love...like someone else said i just feel numb...I can't even CRY!I can't say that I don't know what to do anymore...because...
- today started out early but was actually going kinda ok...until I called my mom to tell her that I was going to risk everything to go pick her up tomorrow take her to my son's graduation ceremony...everything was going ok until she asked if my...
- I really do...I have failed at everything...and now I am sitting here, feeling like crap and don't know what to do...My family thinks i'm lazy and whining...and the truth is that I am...because there is no reason for me to feel this way other than...
- Question about this depression thing...Am I ever going to feel normal again? I've been taking this med going on a month now...and it just isn't working...or I don't think it's working...I still feel lousy...another question, will I ever go back to...
- This is really bad...no...it's DISGUSTING!!!!I have really hit rock bottom now. The other day when I thought I hit rock bottom...no that wasn't rock bottom!!! and maybe this is either!!! but to me it is!!!I just finished forceing myself to eat (I...
- sorry guys....I had another night of not sleeping...just tossing and turning...thinking and thinking...and then I spend all night figuring out what I need to do and planning a schedule on how I am going to do it and what happens? well instead of...
- I'm back here asking the same stupid question and not coming up with an answer. I don't know what to do or how to do what I know i need to do. Like the other day, I just got up at 11:30 because my body just won't let me sleep anymore...so I take...