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Not quite sure how it happened... I got stuck in a loop today.its the only way I can describe it.  I kept saying "I don't know" over and over again.  Kinda like a record that is skipping.  I...

I cut again today.  I just couldn't take all the stress with the stuff going on with my mom. They discharged her today because she doesn't have insurance.  She qualifies for free insurance and she...

Today was Kayla's birthday. It was a terrible day up until her party where  everyone seemed to be able to put aside the things that happened earlier in the back of their minds. Kayla seemed ecstatic...

She said today that her suicidal thoughts aren't bothering her like they used to. That scares me more than I can describe. It scares me because I know what losing the fear of death can do to a...

I do believe I have come to the realization that no one wants to date a guy with scars.  Atleast scars that were self inflicted.  Seriously it's like a double standard and a half. If a guy doesn't...

Woke up to a text from Her. Come to find out her bf wants a 3-way with me and her. I seriously considered it. More for her because I guess I still love her that way. My only problem was with her bf....

Well 6 weeks clean were kinda just wasted. Saw my old favorite blades whichnthe store never seems to carry and I bought them. Went out to my car and made 7 short cuts on my shoulder. I have never...

6 weeks clean and I'm on the verge of cutting again.  Maybe I do belong in a psych ward.  My panic attacks have increased to 4 or 5 a day since I started trying to quit smoking.  It's not like I...

Gotta clear something up. It wasn't that you only wanted me when you were loaded it was that it was getting to a point where you simply wouldn't answer textxs while sober. It wasn't a sexual thing at...

She messaged Jess.  I guess that's the last time I tell anyone my plans.  One less person I can trust I guess.I know she cut but wouldn't tell me. I thought we tild each other everything.  She...

I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a holeThe old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What...

I failed again.  I always do. I was supposed to lose consciousness after 6 minutes that didn't happen so I changed positions and still nothing. Looks like I am a complete failure. Can't even kill...

It's taking everything I have to not commit tonight. I'm sorry. I don't know if I can not go through with it.  There's no point to my existence and ending it will be for the best. If I don't do it...

I guess I wasvhoping she wouldn't get jealous now that she has someone.  I guess I was wrong.  I may just disappear for a while.  I love her but this whole she can date but I can't thing is...

So a buddy I went to college with set me up with his daughter... not as bad as it sounds. He's like 60 and his daughter is 23. Anywho we were supposed to go on a date tonight but after waiting at the...