I cut again today.  I just couldn't take all the stress with the stuff going on with my mom. They discharged her today because she doesn't have insurance.  She qualifies for free insurance and she has it now but because it's not in the system they still wont take her back. We put her up in a hotel close to us so she has a place to sleep until she can get into a program.  If she can't then we are left with basically 2 options. Pay the insane amount of money for rehab and inpatient psychiatric care or she moves in with us. If it comes to that we are screwed either way. Because Jess won't stay in the same house as her and it puts extra financial strain on the family and if we pay for rehab and inpatient care then we are looking at paying $360,000+ for a year which screws up my grandparents retirement even more. I think if either of those scenarios were to happen I would hop on the first freight train out of here or I would kill myself.  My family, at that point, could no longer afford to have me live with them and I know my grandmother would rather have her daughter than her grandson around.  Once I get paid I might just buy some backpacking gear and head out anyway. I don't know how much more I can take. I'm afraid if my mother screws up this time I might just go off the deep end.