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Well my Easter was uneventful. I stayed at home by myself because I didn't want to go to my uncle's for dinner with the rest of the family. I know they would have asked the usual questions like " how...

Jess showed me a few cuts she did yesterday.  Never before have I been so triggered.  They weren't deep, thank god, but what bothers me more is that she tried it at all. She told me she was curious...

4 days... I have beattemptn clean for 4 days. My arm is almost fully healed. Some of the scars are indents which is interesting because up on my shoulder they arent. It might have something to do...

After a long night last night I am feeling super tired but I got to see my aunt Yeon today and my 2 half Korean cousins. Of course just like everyone she had to ask if I have a girlfriend but as...

Well I am still here. You would think 30,000+ mg of acetaminophen would have killed me, especially without getting my stomach pumped. I took them yesterday thinking my body would have shut down by...

When you read this I will hopefully not be here anymore. you might blame yourself for what happened. don't! it's because of you I made it this far. This decision has nothing to do with you. it is...

Court tomorrow... kinda stressin. I have to testify against my mother so my grandparents get custody of the kids. I  will be removing myself from the picture just 14 hours after that. Last time I...

Just when I think I should maybe postpone my next attempt I am reminded that I am no longer needed. I was going to postpone it until after we get back from St. George. but I am thinking Friday may...

I know I'm not needed anymore so I guess I should just fade away like I usually do. I hate the fact that I am just that type of person who helps when needed then I just let the person go back to...

I feel like a schism has formed. She doesn't seem to need me anymore and is either pushing away or too busy. Shit happens and that's cool but I just feel disconnected from her. She doesn't text me...

Mom got a job. Under other circumstances this would be a good thing but right now my biggest fear is that the judge will say we had no right to take the girls. My date is still set for the day after...

This is gonna be a weird entry but here goes. I shaved my chest for the first time since high school. I was just making another place to cut (if you ever tried to cut through hair you understand). I...

I love her... there I said it I love this girl that I can't be with. I can't stand not being there for her just holding her close telling her she is amazing would make my life... I know its tough on...

I finally asked out my sister's teacher,she said sure, just to get my sister off my back. I haven't been on a date in a while. I am a little nervous but I doubt it will go too well. She really isn't...

Talked a girl out of suicide last night. Made me feel a little better. I fucked up everything with one of my friends though. I lied to push her away when I was drunk and now hate myself for it just...