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Really strange dream last night.  From what I can remember.  There was a guy in a black hat just like mine. Kinda looked like me but taller like 6'3 or so. He showed me his right arm and he had...

I am beginning to notice old really old habits sneaking back into my daily routine.  The need to feel wanted and liked seems to be out weighing most other factors when it comes to decision making....

So confused right now. She called me Dada. I'm not her daddy anymore.  She's with Dylan now so I can't be because we can only be friends. Another thing is I don't know if I can stop loving her as...

She was right. She isn't Rachel. Which is why I gave her my whole heart. I'm not Dylan which is why she didn't give me hers. She thinks I don't care.  If I didn't I wouldn't check her various social...

Why? Why won't it stop hurting? I have resigned myself to the fact that I am not as good as him. I know I'll never get her back. She never really wanted me Yada Yada Yada but my heart won't stop...

With this recent person who has been annoying me and Her It has made me think about some one who did something similar. I narrowed the previous person down to someone that knew Her. Probably someone...

I talked with my grandpa for quite a while yesterday.  A lot of what he said made sense. He said that I was and probably always will be her second choice and she would always rationalize being with...

I feel so suicidal right now

Why am I such an idiot? I was rubbing her leg just because I was horny. Hadn't gotten off in a few days and was horny and also because I wanted a little attention from her. I followed her around...

So... my check came last Friday and it's starting to burn a hole in my pocket so to speak.  I haven't cashed it yet but now I don't know what to do with it. I mean it seems like she doesn't quite...

"Call me cynical but the Disney ending, where the nice guy gets the girl of his dreams and they fall in love and live happily ever after, just doesn't seem to happen.  In my experience the nice guy...

I have spent the past 2 hours going over old Facebook messages and my timeline. It is amazing taking a look at the difference in who I was and who I have become. I used to be social, fun, and able to...

Not allowed to feel bad. Not allowed to have a bad day. Not allowed to feel safe. Not allowed to let anyone know how I am truly feeling. Not allowed to be negative. Not allowed to be annoyed. Not...

Last night I felt so pressured into it. I had a minor nervous breakdown.  after talking to some people about it I don't think it would be so bad. She is amazing as a little. I was just worried about...

I don't know why this scares me so much But I do know why I hate myself right now. I guess it's my own fault.  I knew I wasn't good enough for her.  Now she wants me to treat her like a child. I...