dmcapp89

I look back on my life and it's amazing the amount of growth and change in have gone through in the past 20 years. I used to be naive and gullible. I didn't realize the affect I had on others and...

December 21st 2018 my best friend was put down. His name was Turbo. He wasn't the best dog or the goodest boi but he helped me through all of my toughest times. Throughout his 10 years with me he was...

What's the point. Everyone acts like life is so special. Everyone acts like if you do the right thing everything is better. Everyone acts like you can make it. If you can't make it? Fake it until you...

We thought this was probably going to happen some time in the next year but we weren't sure when. We noticed your appetite decrease and how you didn't want to play anymore. We noticed how you only...

Feel a relapse coming on. Not sure when or with what but i know it's right around the corner

Why is it so difficult or wrong for someone to hate their birthday? It seems like no one understands my reasoning. I hate being the center of attention. I hate being surprised. I hate being around...

I miss everything. I feel like I am observing my life and that feels like watching paint dry. I don't know what is going on but I can't seem to find anything to keep me feeling fulfilled. I bought a...

There are days where I don't know who I am. I look back on my life and realize all the people I have left behind. It was so easy. I guess I got used to it but there are days when I miss those people...

I lost my temper today. It wasn't just one thing it has been building for the past month or so. Kayla was asked to go to bed 45 minutes after we told her to go to bed the first time. So she went to...

It's been really hard lately. My new dog tends to mouth quite a bit and hard as well but I want her to bite harder. Everytime someone hits me I want it to be harder. Everytime I have to tell myself...

I don't get she broke up with me. I'm not right for her. I'm not enough for her. She needs 5 different people to love her. Mine was never enough. I can't open up to her. I can let the floodgates open...

I feel hollow not numb but kinda like a step beyond that. Kinda like I'm on autopilot acting and mimicking the emotions and responses I know people want to see. My biggest problem is I am too...

I'm done on DS. I'm tired of hurting those I love. I can't handle it anymore. I don't think I will be writing anymore. What I write and how I feel hurts too many people.  I am just going to go back...

Just for the fuck of it I am seriously thinking about making a tumblr with all my journal entries from here, my phone and my written journal just to leave something behind if I decide to go a certain...

That moment. When you realize you're going to be alone for the rest of your life. That no one will ever want you in a serious relationship.  That no one really gives a damn about you. That you're...