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  Reflection

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 07/23/2022

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  I look back on my life and it's amazing the amount of growth and change in have gone through in the past 20 years. I used to be naive and gullible. I didn't realize the affect I had on others and made some dumb choices and chose my words poorly. I think back to the people that meant the most to me and while we don't speak anymore they have had a profound impact and influence on my life. Looking back I can see and understand how 99% of my romantic relationships never even had a chance of working...

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  Final twitter post.

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 10/02/2021

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  December 21st 2018 my best friend was put down. His name was Turbo. He wasn't the best dog or the goodest boi but he helped me through all of my toughest times. Throughout his 10 years with me he was always there. He was there through my massive depressive states, breakups, suicide attempts, everything and he would always do his best to help me feel better. We were both assholes but it was OK because we were assholes that had eachother. No matter what we had eachothers back. After he passed I...

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  Is life worth it?

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 10/27/2019

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  What's the point. Everyone acts like life is so special. Everyone acts like if you do the right thing everything is better. Everyone acts like you can make it. If you can't make it? Fake it until you make it. Make what exactly? Make a family? Make a life people will remember you for? Make a house and earn 6 figures? Make your mark on the world? What if you choose not to make it? Take the "easy" way out. Doesn't matter how bad of a person you were. How many people you screwed or screwed over....

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  New Friend

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 03/15/2019

  dmcapp89 became friends with potrezebe.

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  Turbo

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 12/20/2018

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  We thought this was probably going to happen some time in the next year but we weren't sure when. We noticed your appetite decrease and how you didn't want to play anymore. We noticed how you only wantes to go outside once a day. We noticed the fatty tumors. We saw on Monday how you couldnt get on the couch anymore. On Tuesday we saw you not able to control your bowels. On Wednesday they wabted to put you to sleep immediately but I wouldnt let them. After all you hadnt gad the steak I bought...

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  Relapse

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 07/03/2018

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  Feel a relapse coming on. Not sure when or with what but i know it's right around the corner

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  Hug

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 06/15/2018

  dmcapp89 sent a hug to Misssfit
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  Journal Comment

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 06/15/2018

  dmcapp89 commented on Misssfit's journal 3 years

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  Journal Like

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  Posted: 06/15/2018

  dmcapp89 liked Misssfit's journal 3 years.

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  Happy fucking birthday

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 06/13/2018

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  Why is it so difficult or wrong for someone to hate their birthday? It seems like no one understands my reasoning. I hate being the center of attention. I hate being surprised. I hate being around groups of people. I hate myself and i don't understand why anyone would want to celebrate the day i was born. All I've done is fuck up, hurt people, be lazy, and be an asshole. For some reason nobody understands that i dont want to be wished a happy birthday. I dont want presents. I dont want to be...

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  Drunken ramblings

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 05/26/2018

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  I miss everything. I feel like I am observing my life and that feels like watching paint dry. I don't know what is going on but I can't seem to find anything to keep me feeling fulfilled. I bought a newish car and I didn't feel excited at all. I try to be social but 90% of people bother me. I try to hike but I am too fat. I don't know what to do except keep some semblance of the status quo.  I am talking to Her again and it seems to go pretty well. She seems to be doing pretty good as well. I...

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  Hug

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 05/25/2018

  dmcapp89 sent a hug to Misssfit
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  Journal Like

  Posted by: dmcapp89

  Posted: 05/24/2018

  dmcapp89 liked Misssfit's journal Bleh.