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I want to leave so badly but I keep feeling like I can't. I'm in my dark place again and all I want is to disappear completely. I have been writing notes in my head but when I realized I didn't have...

Well any shot of not killing myself kinda just flew out the window. I'm hurting so fucking bad right now.  Between my mother disappearing again after she tried to kill herself and Kayla stealing...

She used to say that me writing helped her. Right now it's all I can do.I know she probably hasn't even been on here in a couple weeks but it's worth a shot right? Honestly if I was there I would...

I am in a dark place and have been for a while. I dissociate as much as I can but it's not enough.  My mother wanted to know why I am off my pills. When I told her I can't afford them sge said that...

Mom's in the ICU.  She tried to kill herself.  Her "boyfriend" said she was clean when it happened.  She wasn't.  He called 911 and left her there. She's unconscious right now and I have to wait...

When it comes to people I normally keep them around until they hurt me. After they do hurt me I cut them out completely.  I didn't do that this time. I'm not sure exactly why.  Even Jess thinks I...

Well I'm dumb I fell for her and got burned again. I thought she was genuinely interested in me.  I guess that's my fault. I read the "I love yous" and the "I want to be with you" all wrong. So...

I feel all alone. I guess that's a good thing because it's what I deserve.  I'm trying to see that light at the end of the tunnel but all I see is darkness so maybe ending my life would be a good...

I don't know what I did but she started crying I could hear it. I'm so sorry. I feel like a failure.  To quote Memphis May Fire "who am I to be here I am no different than them we are the same." I...

Writing this because she told me to. Honestly writing hasn't helped me since I was six but whatever.  I feel like killing myself because I do. I don't have a future and honestly I am just a fucking...

We have been talking today which has been amazing.  I came to the realization that I need her in my life. Yeah I love her but I can't let her go like I normally do with people I love. Shes like air...

I started writing on this site as a coping mechanism.  It turned into a way for her to see a side of me no one sees.the issue is my mind is a mess and to write what I'm thinking, even for a minute,...

I am numb. I dont feel tired anymore.  I don't feel hungry. I dont feel emotions anymore.  I don't know what to do. My wall that had been broken down seems to have rebuilt itself. I don't know what...

With my grandparents and sisters gone my gaming addiction has come back as a way of dissociating so I don't do anything self destructive.  I woke up today wanting to die like I usually do but...

Im worried about her. Something feels really off between us. She wont tell me what's bothering her. She has been replying with at most 3 words which wouldn't be anything out of the ordinary but she...