jaclyn1973

Went to SS Friday and got my name back. It was a spur of the moment thing. No tears and no sadness. Of course today I'm hurting. His truck is on campus. I'm fighting the urge to text him that I miss...

things are ok. having lunch with a friend today and going to Shreveport tomorrow for some errands and to have lunch with friends.GETTING MY MEDS FILLED TODAY in hopes that they will help me get back...

Doing ok. But. I am on NC with ex. Only, there are some things we DO have to have contact about and this will go on for maybe 18 months. I had him blocked on FB, cell, email. The only way he could...

Yesterday was horrendous to the NTH degree. Every time I turned around something was coming up that was related to my ex. A phone call that should have gone to his number not mine. A letter. A text....

A rough morning. Remembered at the last minute last night that I have jury duty some time in February, but not sure when. Couldn't find summons, so went to courthouse this morning just in case....

Cried myself to sleep last night. First time in a very long time. I sit in the bathtub and just weep as if all this crap happened today instead of 2 years ago. Crying even now.Did not have my...

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get over him. If there will ever be a time when I don't shed tears over him. Will I ever stop missing him? If there will ever be a time when he doesnt cross my mind...

Meh. Up and down and all around. Ring around the Rosy we all fall down. My moods. He is on my mind constantly. I can be in the middle of doing something and BAM--he intrudes on my thoughts and my...

Meh. Been up and down of course. Saw him at the store twice. He didnt see me. Kinda felt like a pinch instead of the usual knife in the heart, so progress, right?Other things going on have been at...

Can't seem to shake the downswing I'm in right now. Not sure what it's about. Taking my meds, going to counseling, etc. Still feeling so blech. Just cant get myself going. Not suicidal. That is not...

I dunno. I didnt really feel I was depressed, but I guess I have been. Missed 3 days of work. Apt. looks worse than usual. Even on a beautiful day like today, the only reason I was able to make...

Things are mostly going well. Have seen him at the store a couple times from the back. He didnt see me and she was not with him. Didn't hurt. Had to talk to him yesterday about some financial stuff....

So. Had to cancel my Christmas trip yesterday. Long story. One thing after another. Just didnt work out. Was a hell of a day yesterday, including seeing ex in grocery store. First time I've run in to...

I feel better today. Did not sleep well last night so started to take whole day off. Ended up just coming in a few hours late, so that was a positive. Have therapy tomorrow. Though I do not want to...

I feel broken. I feel broken in to more pieces than Humpty Dumpty. And I don't think I will ever feel whole again. His marriage has knocked me down completely. I struggle to not cry at work. I...