1/11/14

I dunno. I didnt really feel I was depressed, but I guess I have been. Missed 3 days of work. Apt. looks worse than usual. Even on a beautiful day like today, the only reason I was able to make myself get dressed and go out was because I am out of coke and water....All I want to do is sleep. Been taking my meds but still.....
So much easier to keep him out of my life than out of my head. I guess it didnt help that I looked through my wedding album last night. It didn't hurt, but I imagine I was already depressed, so it didnt help either. Yesterday was 1st anniversary of my dad's death.
I can't seem to make myself get up and do the things I need to do. Even harder to make myself get out and do the things I need to do to meet more people so I wont be as lonely as I am.