jaclyn1973

Ah, NOW I remember why I get upset when I see him...It took everything I had to claw and scratch my way through those 2 weeks of no contact. I was JUST getting comfortable with it when BAM-he shows...

ok. All better now. I realized this morning that I was viewing his calls and visit wrong. He didn't call/visit because he missed me or because he wanted to see me. If he had not received that mail...

Sigh (damndamdamdam) He called last night. I didnt answer and he didnt leave a message. He came by the office today-first time I have seen him in a month. First contact in over 2 weeks. Reason: to...

ugh. Day started out badly. Found a big mistake I evidently made a couple weeks ago... Could have been a huge problem. Ended up working out ok....but still a big mistake. The day got somewhat better...

Epiphany yesterday. I stood by him for the better part of 25 years. Through hell and back. Bankruptcies, car repos, owing taxes, the cheating, the lies, the constant changing of jobs/careers, the...

Exactly 2 weeks today since we had any contact at all. Monday it will be 4 weeks since I've seen him. It is humbling and heartbreaking to me to realize that if he's even noticed my absence, he...

It may be getting easier. I hate to say it is, for fear of jinxing it, though. Doing the no contact thing. Have not seen him since July 9. Have not had any contact at all since July 20. He did call...

Three weeks since I've seen him. Ten days since I've had any contact with him. He called last night, but I didnt answer. I just deleted it from my caller ID.  Dr keeps calling wanting to reschedule...

Not doing well and have not been doing well for quite a while. A year and a half apart and I still cry myself to sleep. I'm tired of swimming against the tide. Tired of trying to get over him. Tired...

Feeling much much better today after feeling sick for a week and having a hissy fit about the dr office yesterday...Still ticked off. Still changin drs...but feeling better anyway.Out to dinner with...

I've not been feeling well. all the sinus/allergy stuff. I'm not sick but the draining makes me queasy. Trying to fight that..Many years ago, during our off and on dating, etc--he dumped me for the...

Warning--full scale whine party in process.Feel like I have not done anything all weekend but cry. and that's pretty much true. Horrid headaches and crying, that's it. Call from ex today. One of our...

I am sliding back in to the depths of despondency and i hate it. Can't seem to find the brakes though. Seems all I've done today (5/24/13) is cry and feel sorry for myself for one reason or another....

Doing very very badly today. Not quite sure why. Maybe cause have been off meds for a while (bad girl very bad girl)? All I know right this minute is that I need to hold on for 3 more hours. Then I...

I've been up and down and over and outAnd I know one thing:Each time I find myself, flat on my face,I pick myself up and get back in the race.Yup, sounds appropriate, huh.  Sometimes I dont even...