jaclyn1973

The campus where I work is where my ex and I met. It's a small campus with memories and ghosts all over the place. On MWF he is on campus teaching. Luckily (I guess) I don't see him. But still, it's...

He texted me today to tell me that one of the dogs has lost all of his hair on his back. I asked him why. He said he thinks its allergies because the dog is in good health, eating, etc..... I said...

I get so tired of the clichés blah blah blah blah... "Change your attitude" "You can make a choice to be happy"  "Keep a gratitude journal"  sigh...even people who supposedly know and understand...

Not doing well. Been off all week because I just couldn't get up. Praying I don't get fired or laid off or whatever.Hoping my contract gets renewed, but... Don't know what I will do if I lose my job....

Doing ok. I guess. Up and down. Sleeping a lot. Mostly down. Taking my meds and going to therapy, but...Went yesterday and picked up Sasha, the cat I adopted. She's pretty upset about all the changes...

I did a bad thing. Been in contact  with ex a bit ever since I took my dog over to stay with him. I miss talking to him and I keep thinking maybe we could still talk, etc. Texted him a message that...

Finally able to go back to work today after being off 6 days because of depression. A bit anxious cause have not been working in this department long. I think they were not happy with me, especially...

Not able to get to work again today. MUST go tomorrow. Hoping I have not lost my job. Feeling a bit better. Called friend to go out to dinner with me tonight. Hoping to do a couple of things around...

Finally came out of the rabbit hole a little. Went to dinner with a friend. Back to work tomorrow. Hoping I can hold everything together and focus on work. Cannot afford to lose my job. Checked on...

A rough day. Up and down. have not been able to get my butt to work all week, so went to dr today to get an excuse to take with me next week. Plus, to talk about meds. She wanted to put me in the...

Well, I had a feeling 2014 was gonna suck. Don't know why...just a feeling. And it does. In January I was transferred to a different dept on campus, leaving my friends, my support group, behind. Now,...

As low as low can be.....and don't see it changing anytime soon. on meds. going to therapy. but...nothing. but nothing.

Meh...One thing I think about is meeting someone new, dating, etc. But. I think I wont do that. Sometimes, I DO want to, but...I think it's not for me. I'm not good at relationships. I'm certainly...

New thoughts on Karma. Found out ex made more money than he ever made before and is getting 4 grand refund.....realized waiting and watching for Karma to hit is holding me back. So, back to focusing...

Not a good day. Email from my cousin. Her mother has been having stomach problems for awhile, which I knew. They said something or other was twisted, nothing they could do, she'd have to live with...