jaclyn1973

Life pretty well feels like it sucks right now. It doesn't. I actually have a pretty good life but....I keep reminding myself, that now that Bozo and Tinker Bell are married, that was the last...

he got married today.

#4 is here. They drove past me Friday I think it was. I've had a total melt down so I'm not quite sure when it was. Been sleeping a lot to avoid the pain. Wasn't sure what day it was today until I...

Back from cruise. It was great. Waiting in the mail for me was a letter regarding my student loans. When my ex screwed up the bankruptcy, it caused my my school loans to be kicked out, so now they on...

Doing pretty well. Had therapy session today. Talked to her about how sometimes when I think of him, I don't feel anything anymore. No love, no hurt....apathy. When I do feel like that i start...

Have not been on in a good while. Same old, same old. Up, down, all around..you do the HoKey Pokey and you turn yourself around. That's what it's all about.Ex will be moving #4 here Thanksgiving...

not doing too well today. No contact in a month which is good I guess.  But our (not) anniversary is Thursday. This week is also the aniversary of receiving the final papers. Nov. 6 is the 4th...

Therapy today. somehow I seemed to have come out sadder than when I went in. I feel emotionally tired. So tired of dealing with all of this. Had an epiphany this weekend. When I eventually found out...

Back on my meds. Will take a few days for them to kick in. Sixteen years ago I was living in Memphis and was 3 weeks away from marrying the love of my life; the person who meant everything to me in...

Still spending a lot of time in the dumps. Been missing my mother so very much lately. Still a month till the anniversary of her death, so dont know what this is about. One night I just cried and...

Sigh. Looked at myself in the mirror today. Thought, "well, no wonder he doesn't want me anymore. Who would want a woman who looks like that. Over weight, glasses, needs a haircut and a dye job, etc...

Meh. Things still keep going wrong. Little everyday, that's life kind of things but I dont seem to have the strength to not let them bug me. Carpet still damp. Smells horrid. Probably gonna have to...

Wow. Oct 1.  So much been going on. Last week was hell of a ride. Things with (or rather without) him were fine. No contact and I was handling it well. But all around me things kept going...

Tomorrow is his birthday and I don't care. last year on his birthday I was on my way to Galveston to leave on my very first cruise. He kept texting me and asking if I was there yet and what it was...

Geez. I feel like crap today. Rough night. Worst night sweats I ever had. horrible headache. Vertigo. Feeling crappy today too. Head hurts stomach a bi upset.. Was supposed to go meet some friends...