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i'm up, showered and dressed and cuddle and fed Blue.It's 615am and pretty soon I need to run down to chapel to start settingit up!Things are good. I can't wait to talk to my doctor again.For now I...

just got back to my room after late night services and the mealfor Theophany - (a celebration) -  the Greek greeting we're supposed tosay at the end of all of it  is 'Chronia Polla' - which I...

I am starting to feel and think that 'creativity' is a survival mechanismwithin us.a friend once posted a cartoon of 'dark thoughts' personifiedand it started pestering a young guy - the young guy...

I'm going down to chapel soon, to set it up and then have a lateservice today starting at 745am.We'll have liturgy (communion) which means I can't eat or drinkbefore the service and I really want to...

I came to a good conclusion after writing this:I just wish there were more stable peace within me. I have to keep taking myself to a step back position and reckon with the paranoia but also the...

it's 534am in the morning - I've showered and dressedand I am ready to go down to Chapel at 600am.Things are good, I am grateful for a new day!I wrote a big, BIG entry that I am refining ormaybe...

we may want to live in the grace we prefer -and we may reinforce ourselves with grace to buffer the slingsand arrows of life...stoically find solace in ideas and disposition but then we must also...

I was downstairs in service this morning, after I had a conversationwith the Abbess last night. That conversation ultimately helped me because itwas expressing something that was on my mind but then...

We had special services before trapeza last night (trapeza is the name for the dinning hall).We then went our separate ways to rest until 930p when the celebratory holiday services began.I have to...

I was feeling really cut to bone last night -and this morning.My therapist and I had a great conversation -and then I reached out to the elder in Switzerland andI said "i love you - could you please...

at a certain point, i need to stop asking so many questionsand realize we're all dealing with the questions of life - with the animal forces inside us - -perhaps looking for the perfect heart or...

I am sitting behind the iconostasis and I’m thinking about Dad. I’m thinking about everyone. Dad every once in a while brings up things I did in the past and I just stay silent. I just let him...

feel like a dunce among my friends from high schoolwish i could lick my wounds and get on with my lifegot to take care of myself cause no one else willgot to do something with my life - not for...

I try and stand on my own two feet in conversation - and respect others - afraidof their discomfort and mine - trying to stand strong but gentle - minding the boundary - when I finally bend and give...