malibumark

I woke up this morning and my mind went squirrel brainagain - and I disassociated - I felt like a petty gossipy toxicsick person - and I couldn't shake it - I looked suspiciouslyat others when they...

I had a tumultuous day yesterday from my condition. Sleep helped. I wrote this to my (family member) because I relied on him. I wanted to share.Hi (family member), about yesterday. I lost sight of...

i get lost in the moment - I get lost from interactions wtih strangers -it then affects my interactions with my family -and those around me - at least it may from my vantageand I may sense that it is...

I think at times I want, with the blooming of wisdom, that the great spirit of life will open and I'll be carried forward in a kind of 'flow.' Though I am realizing todayit's very much about still...

I was struggling with myself, my human animal impulses in church. I felt dark things within myself I felt pressure to be there at church at the monastery and yet knew I would stand as a person...

really looking forward to seeing my therapist today.i woke up at odds with my life todayjust undermined and  i think we all can feel trapped in the life we chooseand then there are things that...

we may not be the kind of heroes that donate money and havetheir names on buildings or engraved on wallsbut we take care of each other - each day - and that kind of generosity of spirit of giving -...

I hope you’ guys are safe and continue to be so.This morning I was confronted by my dark side again  but I also thought about the message I sent to my therapist about the fact that ‘I like...

Have a great day everyone!

I got up at 5am today - snoozed until 530a then showered and dressedand went down to chapel for set up. Then had services - then a 40 minute break.I talked to the Abbess and had a cup and a half of...

this morning I was unable to find my heart, at least I felt I had to be perfect. In a morning of feeling at odds with myself, I resolved to be humble and focus on my responsibilities. It made all the...

I realized today that for all the issues I seem to get flustered aboutwith my parents - I know I love them - and I know they love me and I can't ask them to be perfectwhen I know I am not perfect...

went to services this morningand really was empowered by that ideaof seeing it was 'the same story over and over' here.It really made delivering my end of responsibilities easierand again avoid being...

It's like my legs can work fast enough for my body