malibumark

I woke up this morning feeling empty and barren of any strength of character. A sense of loss of family connection tested my will to carry on. I had nothing to hold onto inside. I felt lost and...

I was feeling super weak yesterday at workand when I started to write about it on my phone -I thought it could be because I am tired - and that kind of objective view made me realize that I...

I don't feel like going down to Church this morning. I know it'll be fineonce I get down there. The COVID Vaccine and flu vaccine that I got yesterdaymade me have the night sweats last night.Now I am...

Ive been avoiding this but I need to start looking for a new therapist here in Maryland.As well I need to start devoting myself a little more to learning here at the monastery.

Good morning friends! Have a good day!

i wrote this last night:It’s confusing, I don’t know how to make sense of my experience tonight.  It’s as though my body wants power over my whole being. It’s been a long day. Perhaps I am...

Having Blue to take care of has really helped me learn to be responsible for another creature. I may not understand his wild animal nature at times but I do know if I have extra time on my hands, as...

It’s Boxing Day, I don’t have any tradition for today, but I imagine if I did, it’s usually been errands.. so I’m doing that!! :) keep happy!

Just had a morning of services and then morning meal.I was introspective, for a change heh, behind the iconostasis.I felt abstract and needed to motivate myself....I realized my difficulty with...

I need to get down to the chapel lickety split -but I wish I could talk here for a spell.Things are ok I guess -Just wish I didn't have to go down there -argg - we all have commitments  :) heh

I’m home from work. I have to tell you that while at work today, initially there was a flurry activity with nearly a full house of all the bakery employees working. I found my niche and worked...

I'm waiting for 2nd service to start and then morning meal. Then I will go up to my room until it's time to head out to work! The last day before the holiday!!!Have a good day everyone!!

i am excited about going to work today. I want to make money and want to be 'out there.'I thought about this though earlier this morning:I noticed something yesterday about that the young man hereWho...

Feeling well and grateful. During service, behind the iconostasis, I was feeling confronted by my lack of power to conduct my life as I wished. The pressure of the religiosity around me was...