malibumark

I was feeling really cut to bone last night -and this morning.My therapist and I had a great conversation -and then I reached out to the elder in Switzerland andI said "i love you - could you please...

at a certain point, i need to stop asking so many questionsand realize we're all dealing with the questions of life - with the animal forces inside us - -perhaps looking for the perfect heart or...

I am sitting behind the iconostasis and I’m thinking about Dad. I’m thinking about everyone. Dad every once in a while brings up things I did in the past and I just stay silent. I just let him...

feel like a dunce among my friends from high schoolwish i could lick my wounds and get on with my lifegot to take care of myself cause no one else willgot to do something with my life - not for...

I try and stand on my own two feet in conversation - and respect others - afraidof their discomfort and mine - trying to stand strong but gentle - minding the boundary - when I finally bend and give...

I woke up this morning feeling empty and barren of any strength of character. A sense of loss of family connection tested my will to carry on. I had nothing to hold onto inside. I felt lost and...

I was feeling super weak yesterday at workand when I started to write about it on my phone -I thought it could be because I am tired - and that kind of objective view made me realize that I...

I don't feel like going down to Church this morning. I know it'll be fineonce I get down there. The COVID Vaccine and flu vaccine that I got yesterdaymade me have the night sweats last night.Now I am...

Ive been avoiding this but I need to start looking for a new therapist here in Maryland.As well I need to start devoting myself a little more to learning here at the monastery.

Good morning friends! Have a good day!

i wrote this last night:It’s confusing, I don’t know how to make sense of my experience tonight.  It’s as though my body wants power over my whole being. It’s been a long day. Perhaps I am...

Having Blue to take care of has really helped me learn to be responsible for another creature. I may not understand his wild animal nature at times but I do know if I have extra time on my hands, as...

It’s Boxing Day, I don’t have any tradition for today, but I imagine if I did, it’s usually been errands.. so I’m doing that!! :) keep happy!

Just had a morning of services and then morning meal.I was introspective, for a change heh, behind the iconostasis.I felt abstract and needed to motivate myself....I realized my difficulty with...