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It's 545am here. I'm showered and dressed and made coffee. I'm here in the kitchen on my own. Silence and darkness. Things are good and so grateful. I feel like, am reminded of, my grandmother who...

I can take things too far... It seems I always take thingsto excess. But I am learning now - that although I may havea extreme side I need to pull myself in and give myself ahuman context, if that...

I’m feeling tired, but maybe if I look back I can appreciate that I’ve been up since 520am to shower and dress and be down to chapel to set things up. Then had 1.5 hours of service then meal time...

I was feeling empty but I will remember to be self responsible and that I am just waking and I have the chapel to prepare. It’s kind of fun to come to chapel when it’s still dark out and be the...

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There is such formality and bitterness from some of the sisters here. They don't validate themselves with their relationships with each other but it seems they do by their relationship with their...

Really starting to see how my feelings can swallow me when I am alone. That knowledge is also giving me some leverage to contend with them and not drown in solitude. Living in this community is also...

had a good level morning and then did errands for myselfand the monastery - then as I drove home - my mind sped upand twisted me - so that when I got back into my roomI just wanted to sit still and...

hi guys, I am here in my room, getting ready to go down to services.things are good. just wanted to write. have a good day ahead!

I've been to services, I have been to morning meal.I'm back in my room and I fed Blue and made the bed.I am ready for the day.A blank page in front of me won't have me get lazy and languishin earthly...

this morning I woke and felt like a child, I felt dependent and discontented. Incompetent. I steeled myself to get ready and to get down to chapel for 7am services. I said to myself ‘this is what...

I’m a nut job. I’ve submitted my insurance application to the social worker. I was handed off to another who is now helping me.I am grateful and I appreciate that.I went to the bank too and...