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This is what I thought about today:things are going ok I guess - well not really - i just tookan extra olanzapine today. I'm having a moment of weaknessI made an appointment with a new GP today for...

I’ve learned and concluded today that very often I have looked at the nuns and just thought “ok icons” -icons of impeccable knowledge and behavior...But I’m realizing it's not the case. They...

i've been thinking about 3 things."Wants, needs and shoulds." My life is very much governed by these. I think it's safe tosay it has a role in a lot of peoples' lives. I came home from work...

good morning.I was in the chapel this morning It was still dark out and I was the first to arrive.I was thinking about how, from the stories I have heard about the other monastics, that this is a...

the morning seemed empty, the day ahead a blank.My feelings felt bluntly sad at the loneliness and fragile.I came back to my room after making coffeeand started making preparations for the work...

So often when I feel the impulse to do something pleasurable my scope is so filled with nothing else that I just think to myself'why not?!!'I was in my room at the monastery and I thought about this...

I was spinning about a lot of things tonight before I got back to my room.I wanted to share that I was holding onto some indignation about slightsthat have happened in my life and a sense of...

that's not meant to be a harsh title...but maybe just a good description ofwhat I am thinking about. There are things in my life - reactions to things -that have stopped me from progressing because I...

there's a young man here at the monastery, his name is Andrei,he also suffers from mental health challenges. I've realized he may not get better after talking to him at length, and many times...

I had all sorts of powerful conclusions tonight of which I wrote a bunchof emails and sent them to my therapist.they left me feeling capable and cognizant. Alonein life in the sense that I am...

I stayed in bed until around 910am or so today.Pretty late for me but the headcold got a lot worse over night.At one point, I coughed so hard that Blue meowed and came over to meand laid across my...

good night friends and comrades. Keep on keeping on.If you ever feel like an empty slate, a tabula rasa - a good thing to remember is to just do what you need todo right in front of you and do it...