malibumark

Last night I needed to talk to my therapist about developments here at the monastery in Oklahoma. I tried to coordinate with my therapist unsuccessfully. I wrote the following back to her:This is...

It’s funny how I seem to be chasing after answers in life and yet here I am, now in Oklahoma, just ‘here I am’ and I find myself.

 I was given the conundrum in my mind about how I should commit to my relationships in life. Wholeheartedly I mean - be solid - and so on. in life. I was tired on the drive home and weird thoughts...

I slept in today and I got dressed and ready to go downto catch the last portion of the mass. It seemed I made a mental wrong turnat some point - but I didn't chase it down a rabbit hole.I just kind...

 This morning is bringing fruitful thoughts! I was feeling high flying and healthy and quite proud early on. ThenI was listening to service and struggling to submit.. I thought about my austerity of...

It’s weird, all the things that can define you in life, you kind of have to process and take it with a grain of salt. You may need to think on things to affirm yourself at times, but you can’t...

Finding commonality and so glad I am where I am.good morning and have a beautiful day!

I am happy. I did my laundry today and then went down to the chapel for the morning meal. After I wrote my last entry - I decided in the spirit of itthat I am just going to live my life. I have...

I struggle with feeling fear about exposing myself too much in in-person relationships. I have this habit about predicting the worst case scenario.when I start to feel good and positive. Something in...

I think all this perseverating and writing is about me using all my resourcesto stay managed and consciously on track. It has gotten away from me at timesbut I think I know now - how to manage...

I wrote that down the other night.In a kind of fantasy in my head - I needed to ground myselfand that truth seemed to affirm. I know it's weird -and MATRIX like -but so it goes - things are good.

I came home to Blue - and he was eager to socialize.It's not just about me - I thought while walking in the door - and it's not just about him - but an open conversation -him being calmed for his...

I went down to chapel this morning - as I wrote in my last journal. Service wentwell. My teacher/nun was kind of bossy with mebut I know we're all dealing with a myriad of things in our lives.I...