Good enough part 2

 Good things are happening here. Committing to this life is teaching me about getting on with the work in front of me and that I like it enough to let down self imposed boundaries though each day I’m variable about some such details Rather then focusing on resting to cope I’m getting used to all the work as a part of life. I’ve heard it described as, and this is true for me, ‘the more you have to do, the more you can do.’

I worked a morning shift today and so I was around other workers and my boss which is rare.. I focused and did the best job I could and a veteran of the store (19 years with the company) who works in our department said to me at the end of the day ‘you do a really good job.’ I experienced working with the boss today and yes everyone is saying she gets how she gets. Thrives on gossip and negativity. But I ignored it and just did a good job and got noticed for it.:-)

I’m at home now and that demand that I kind of stay in my own lane but do a good job is also teaching me how I get on and along here at the monastery. Sometimes maybe my sticking to the rules inside my mind and wanting attention for it has been something I’ve needed to grow out of. Conversely I know I have often sought to self define from within and even then I think I can start to fall in love with my own definitions rather than think about needing to keep on keeping on and get along.

I’m learning to just be with the group here at the monastery, yes to know there are rules (wnd they impact each) and there’s commitment or loyalty to my self direction but just being able to relax and not feel I’ve gotta be perfect , despite all the dynamics of life, is helping me a great deal. I find myself becoming maybe more dynamic in the way I handle things as well as my reaction to them.

Ive had a full day and I’m in a good place. I hope things are good with you guys..

Lifestyles come in many forms but we all gotta deal with ourselves and the people around us:). I can be variable about here but recently I’ve started to say ‘I like it enough.’ :-)

Xx