malibumark

I think the reason i ruminate has to do with not knowing what to do with my time and then I start to ruminating as like a creative activity. Safe as all get out.  No need to be brave enough or all...

I phoned and left a message for my therapist. Things here are ok but I was feeling backed into a corner thinking in terms of and questioning ‘ what should I do?’ And ‘what can I do?’ With the...

No one is here in chapeland I am reading from the prayer book aloud. It's weird. I'm taking a small break to write you guys. Sending prayers and good vibes.

Last night I needed to talk to my therapist about developments here at the monastery in Oklahoma. I tried to coordinate with my therapist unsuccessfully. I wrote the following back to her:This is...

It’s funny how I seem to be chasing after answers in life and yet here I am, now in Oklahoma, just ‘here I am’ and I find myself.

 I was given the conundrum in my mind about how I should commit to my relationships in life. Wholeheartedly I mean - be solid - and so on. in life. I was tired on the drive home and weird thoughts...

I slept in today and I got dressed and ready to go downto catch the last portion of the mass. It seemed I made a mental wrong turnat some point - but I didn't chase it down a rabbit hole.I just kind...

 This morning is bringing fruitful thoughts! I was feeling high flying and healthy and quite proud early on. ThenI was listening to service and struggling to submit.. I thought about my austerity of...

It’s weird, all the things that can define you in life, you kind of have to process and take it with a grain of salt. You may need to think on things to affirm yourself at times, but you can’t...

Finding commonality and so glad I am where I am.good morning and have a beautiful day!

I am happy. I did my laundry today and then went down to the chapel for the morning meal. After I wrote my last entry - I decided in the spirit of itthat I am just going to live my life. I have...

I struggle with feeling fear about exposing myself too much in in-person relationships. I have this habit about predicting the worst case scenario.when I start to feel good and positive. Something in...

I think all this perseverating and writing is about me using all my resourcesto stay managed and consciously on track. It has gotten away from me at timesbut I think I know now - how to manage...