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I think at times I want, with the blooming of wisdom, that the great spirit of life will open and I'll be carried forward in a kind of 'flow.' Though I am realizing todayit's very much about still...

I was struggling with myself, my human animal impulses in church. I felt dark things within myself I felt pressure to be there at church at the monastery and yet knew I would stand as a person...

really looking forward to seeing my therapist today.i woke up at odds with my life todayjust undermined and  i think we all can feel trapped in the life we chooseand then there are things that...

we may not be the kind of heroes that donate money and havetheir names on buildings or engraved on wallsbut we take care of each other - each day - and that kind of generosity of spirit of giving -...

I hope you’ guys are safe and continue to be so.This morning I was confronted by my dark side again  but I also thought about the message I sent to my therapist about the fact that ‘I like...

Have a great day everyone!

I got up at 5am today - snoozed until 530a then showered and dressedand went down to chapel for set up. Then had services - then a 40 minute break.I talked to the Abbess and had a cup and a half of...

this morning I was unable to find my heart, at least I felt I had to be perfect. In a morning of feeling at odds with myself, I resolved to be humble and focus on my responsibilities. It made all the...

I realized today that for all the issues I seem to get flustered aboutwith my parents - I know I love them - and I know they love me and I can't ask them to be perfectwhen I know I am not perfect...

went to services this morningand really was empowered by that ideaof seeing it was 'the same story over and over' here.It really made delivering my end of responsibilities easierand again avoid being...

It's like my legs can work fast enough for my body

it's Sunday morning, 605 am -I have to get down to chapel to help set it up.I can't wait for my trip to Florida - I have 4 days of doingwhatever I please while visiting with relatives.I am hungry and...

i'm home from work now and things are good.Blue was distressed though because I was gone more time than usual today.He looked at me with distrust which really gets me - He'll get over it.I am looking...

Spiritual paths I was impressed by a visitor to the monastery today as he told me about his life. I tried to tell him a little about mine too. After we went into services together, I stood there...