malibumark

I keep on searching for a detail of my life that would providea kind of blame and victimhood - I can't - I am a victim of fate and my own luck ofthe draw genes. I have a hard time accessing grace...

It's so important to have a purpose or a responsibility in life.i woke up this morning and felt so aimless. But I remembered the idea that life is about taking care of life and keeping it going. The...

today I have thought again about the proverb 'family is not about right or wrong, it is about beingcomplete.' (thank you Arfie!!!) I reached out many times to my sister A, by text, when I was being...

I am managing my life. Sometimes I see a dark sideabout myself - I know we all have one- and yet it bothers me,it haunts me. I want to focus my efforts on serving some good cause.I think that's where...

Well sort of… First thing as I woke up, I was undermined by my mind and I just grrrr got on with the day..I took a ride into work, not because I have work today but because I accidentally took a...

I was feeling so low and lowly after work today.. so I decided to take a shower and get into pajamas. Feeling so much better!

I know I offered to light a candle recently for a friend so here it is.May the candle's glow provide the reminder that hope is alive for a new day tomorrow and aLao the changes that it will bring.

Sometimes the intensity I impose on myself (I am learning ) is my way to keep grounded, keep focused and on target and responsible. I’m at the ford service center right now and I’m sitting in...

can't be passive with myself!I was really going down the path of least resistance there -and realizing I hated myself and my life, after my Unclesaid to me (who is 94 years old) - "You got to be able...

I'm at work now, I start in roughly 20 minutes. I've just had 2 days off and now I really don't want to work. I fear if I didn't work though, I would become extremely vulnerable, financially and...

I guess what I have finally realized about this place (here at St. Nina's)is that it's the closest thing to living 'in art' that I have ever experienced.I know I have got to take care of myself (and...

I wrote the following message to a priest friend who isbased in Switzerland. He and I have become friends.I wrote this to him:Father, I want to confide in you that I can be very variable inside. This...

We are all plodding along. We’re processing our lives and getting on with what we need to do. There are nice moments and vexing, confusing things.Yesterday I felt so connected to the monastery then...