malibumark

This was written last night.There was a lot of work today.I didn't get it all done - I just left behind someunfinished cleaning.I'm getting lost in Maryland. But I come homeand put on the robe...

I reconnected with my therapist last night after a 10 day break. I'm feeling down aboutour conversation last night. I don't know exactlywhy but I feel it has to do with me and my owncraziness.  I...

The monastery has been closed because many here have come down with COVID!Many of the clergy are staying in their rooms and meals are being delivered to them.The few of us who are well just ate...

I think the fact that we're all here at the monastery in the name of faith - that we are each trying to believe andanswer questions in our life - and perform our duties - is like a consensus of...

it's weird, I have noticed when I feel good about life I tend to coast on the routineand the good feeling of it... I forget the need to plan for my future - to save resources -to seek elements of the...

hey you guys -I am thinking about you - I wanted to share these thoughtswhich came about when I realized I build myself up and tear myself Down so much of the time (uncontrollably tear myself down)...

It seems like there's always the next battle to deal with in life. Get ready get set.. go

This morning I was not so content in services.My mind was generating invasive thoughtsand thoughts of my own vascilations about thingsas well as wanting things that I do not have in my life.Like a...

I'm seriously wondering what my appetites and yet abilities can afford me in life.Maybe awkwardly put but there are things I don’t want to give up on having yet in life but I am here and I do have...

I’m learning to wear two hats, though I’ve been doing that for sometime now. I need to be self responsible but also I need to dream a little to think about life aspirations. I have to be sure...

I've heard it said, and I certainly agree with it, that 'life is moments.'Though, we are forever moving forward and can't hold on to the experience life. For me I have seen lice has been moments of...

I want to offer a bird'seye view of what the monastery has done for me.My fellow ds-ers I know this place is not for everyone.before i came to the monastery - I really kept objectified in a...

well - it's a been nice night for sure. at least after the conclusionsI have had - it's all has been made worthwhile...I traveled to the airport to pick up a couple of guests.They were kind of snooty...

I don't know if anyone else has experience with this kind of thing, but I'll say it. My mental health challenges has made me very tentative about working with intellectual or more precisely, academic...