Seriously

I'm seriously wondering what my appetites and yet abilities can afford me in life.
Maybe awkwardly put but there are things I don’t want to give up on having yet in life but I am here and I do have nice things in my life.

i'm becoming very much the worker bee here and life is becoming routine and comfortable and I’m remembering to remind myself to appreciate the good moments while dealing with the other things in life. Incidentally I really love the morning chore of taking out the chicken food to where the cats and the chickens eat together. It’s such a nice walk and is just such a simple moment of peace and nourishing life.
I have a lot to be grateful for yet I do still want a relationship. I feel confused. I like being on my own at moments and then others I have the confusing feelings of not having a legitimate life without it. So many different flavors in life I suppose that at some point maybe questions like this come up for us all. My aunt Florence made a spectacular life alone, how much good she engendered. We all have value no matter how our life unfolds with relationships significant or social.I guess it’s good to remind myself of that, essential value. And to not judge myself for having an unusual path.We all or each have a unique path