malibumark

I find myself thinking all sorts of things. For the lability of my mood and mind, I search details to affirm me and then don't seem to have a center. I am a team player yet at times I want to be...

I wrote this journal, to my therapist today - I shared it with someone elseand the result is me seeing that maybe I ask too much of this personand I have to keep it to the site and with my therapist....

I realized a long time ago, that when choosing an animal - don't just go for the one who seemsthe most flashy and captivates you. Go for the one who chooses you, while you stand in front of them.My...

I woke up this morning happy and foggy, thinking in terms of the right things to do because so often I make mental wrong turns. I just couldn't focus on it all. It was excruciating.i came down to...

I wrote this to someone very close to me.Hi again, I’m drawn to tell you because you and everyone are important to me as a source of setting the tone of my life. This is what I wrote before we...

I really came to a place of understanding what I put my father throughand what I put others through - like the Elder - and now understandingthe reactions and behaviors -all sides of it -  the elder...

I am going to startfocusing on the good and less on the toxic. I'll be positive I have to admit though I have a lot of rage in me right now.I can't help it - when I start to relax - I remember I...

It's wild, but I'm realizing that much of the time when I come home alone to my room (after spending time with blue that is), I tend to ruminate or focus on the most recent irritant to my security...

arfie's last comment came at a really good time.i've been on the arc of accepting 'in the moment' what is real or reasonable and what is not.i am home now from my trip - and I find myself feeling the...

I’m not so good at being alone, in some ways I am but in some ways I’m not and I react to that. I’ve learned that not everyone wants or can have the same kinds of relationships. The prayers in...

went to service just now and it was a rough transition. My head felt like cement. I tried to lift my sights taking a little energy giving a little energy within and around me to sustain holding my...

I think we adopt standards to reassure us So that we don’t feel like an alien  I need to make a life for myself that is satisfying. I don’t know why I have such yearning in me. But I’ll have...

So much of the time for me now is spent worrying if I am ok, if it is ok to be me or to follow my desires. When I got very sick it manifested in my person making me unacceptable to my family. Now I...

It's the weirdest thing. Sometimes if I have sort of sorted things out for myself, and feel happy with my resolution there is something in me that sometimes just still wants more. I know we're human...