malibumark

I've had a fever for a couple of days now - coughing, sore throat, aches, chills etc..I was kind of rolling over at first (like a kid - not knowing what to do - looking to cut corners - wanting...

Something about my day has me rattled. I had to take this visitor who has been here with us for over a monthout in the city.or rather I was asked to take her out while I did my personal errands.She's...

For the way my illness has affected me is to experience extremeisolation and alienation and not a really good sense of co existence with others.That's how it was in the beginning of my journey - when...

I thought about all the confusion and yearning within me this morning. It was a little more intense than usual. I thought about it and marveled at those who ‘stay on track’ in life. I then...

I took myself out for a glass of red wine at the pub today. I had a snack and a Diet Coke as well.I'm trying to mind my intake but I was really'up for' some cookies and so I thought that I'd stop at...

I'm starting to see my vulnerability at times and I'm not having guiltiness or upset about it (like im not perfect enough). I'm starting to see it in others too, and methinks it's perfectly natural....

....and motivated.Last night I felt rejected by my family for whatever reason. Not being cool ? Or I don't know.It's echoing in my brain this morning and I just need to toss itaside. I know we can't...

It was a very small assembly of only a few nuns and me during dinner and evening services tonight but it was really, really lovely.

When I commit to dreaming and living my dreams I also get in touch with my authentic self. The dual reference points within me in light of this birthing brings on paranoia and reactivity. I know it...

I awoke at 5 and got down to church at 6a. It was a routine morning fueled with the last thoughts I wrote about here yesterday. I was finding myself content with life here. A very good thing. Oddly,...

this morning I sent a couple of emails to my therapist.I then did chores - and then I had some more thoughtsand wrote a couple of posts.Then I wrote my therapist another email.My therapist said to me...

just taking a break now. resting afer a busy morning.I slept in today and got down to church at 930amI had coffee and then ran a lodger's meal up to the rectory.Then went to paraklesis service and...

so grateful for you guys.i really appreciate the space here.Though occassionally I pyne for a relationshipwith a significant other, tonight I am recognizingthat maybe the monastic brotherhood and...