malibumark

I know I have my feelings about things sometimes. In fact they cancolor my whole sense of reality -  and they can be beautiful momentsor conversely I can get stuck in place aboutthe misery I'm...

'A writer only begins the book, The reader finishes it' ..Samuel Johnson.I found this quote and added the pic and now after posting you’ll make it your own!! Isn’t that cool??!! I found that out...

I have to admit that this morning in services I was at my wit's end again.Just feeling like I couldn't do anything right, that my brain was just cotton wadding and pleasure orientedand that I only...

I think if I were to write a book about my life, I would call it "CONTACT."So much of my life has been about searching out ways to connect with friends, family,school mates, work mate, et al..I've...

being here at the monastery is teaching more and more how to get along with other adults . It’s helping me be reasonable and get along and also be awake to those I really really like. I think some...

i think i so distilize my emotions to an universalitybecause I wasn't allowed to have them as a kid.I think it was like a second mind that developedfor processing my experience in a safe wayI also...

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 i am tired and my patience is being challenged with the monasticcrowd. specifically with the presiding priests. they treat us like shit and then they just marvel and the exquisiteness of their...

I just spent 5 hours in services. It was a lot, I was standing nearly the whole time, my legs went numb. It’s a weird life here in some respects but it’s a gentle enough environment where it...

i had an awesome evening service, vespers, and then did my chores andcame back to my room. that's not all of it - but I am not so focused on details.I came back to my room and sat in the big cozy...

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I took the night off from services last night. One thing I don’t like about that is that I feel childish to try and squeeze in ‘me time’ whenever I can. I feel like a cheater and childish...

i'm thinking about how I sometimes want beautiful things in my life, andmoney too, to buy beautiful things and practical things.I find myself confused over this, my seeking out beauty and then...