throwing the perfecting shit out the window

I really came to a place of understanding what I put my father through


and what I put others through - like the Elder - and now understanding

the reactions and behaviors -all sides of it - 

 

the elder needs to have his flock under control -

I am not saying I like it - I am also wondering if I am meant to be under his

shepherding -

but I get it - I'm moving forward

 

I realized I have been very reactionary to certain stuff - and after realizing

that I found how sick and tired I feel - 

 

but also knowing

how I am affecting people is helping me chart a path forward.

I am  not going to self perfect and then be ready for a life -

I realize that everyone's managing - and it's real important to me

to reach out to friends for companionship and not always just for

commiseration. 

 

I don't feel like going to go down to meal prep - but I'll have a snack first

and then get to work -

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Community LeaderMid
Mid

Sometimes, just getting some water/liquid and a friendly snack is enough to encourage our balance. Here's to keeping on "keep on".
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Mid!
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine

Try to keep a balance in life

Like Mid said
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Bob. There’s been a lot of very difficult things happening here. I think it’s manifesting finally. I’ll be ok
arfie
arfie

the breakthrough exercise on my own perfectionism is, "define perfect."

decades after adopting this exercise, i still haven't found the perfect definition of perfect and am beginning to wonder if the most glaring imperfection in god's perfection is my definition of, "perfect."

or? ? ? am i lost in metaphor again?

serve me up a slice of that good ol' humble pie.
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Arfie!