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learning news thingsI am not sure where to put this or how to express itI am not sure if it's good to express it but I will try to.It's all on my mind.. I hope that these thoughts canhelp me and the...

I find myself being in touch with so many things - from dinner with the elder last nightto then my errands and responsibilities this morning.It's really been a delightful day - I got good work done...

My personality varies so much.The changes in my mind yield different talents, perceptions and insight.i know we all have to deal with the changes within us. I guess what I'm trying to do is just to...

It's dark outside. I've lit all the votives in chapel. The morning darkness is wrapping around me like a heavy blanket and the solitude is weighing on me with a sadness and loneliness. I know it's...

I hope you guys can always remember that dark, really dark, moods may come but they will go as well.I wrote these notes to my therapist.Firstly I told her about something I wrote to the elder:When...

I am thinking about the idea of systems in life. I was thinking about how we live in them and how we create them for ourselves too and how we intermingle with others and their systems that they make...

Well, maybe not wrong but perhaps having acceptance for some upset between me and another person here that happened last night at the monastery. I'm dealing with the healing time in between us. Even...

with all the pressures here to be 'just so'i have found the self denial overwhelming and sick making -my realization is that doing things that I like to dothe way I like them done is so relief giving...

is it this way for you too? is it this way for anyone else?i think sometimes when life is too comfortable for mei have a hard time motivating myself to do something...some kind of productive work....

Beautiful cool sunny autumn day here and one sister said 'it's perfect for apple picking' ! Too true!

I am reminded of this titled organization that is in Los Angeles. They've got a beautiful Lake Shrinein Pacific Palisades.I am thinking about it - as my sense of my station in life is coming more...

A journal I had an extreme reaction towards me from one of the priests here today over something very minor . He’s done things like this before and it gave me pause. As with patients or...

sometimes i get lost wondering what I want but then I just look at the job in front of me- and doing that just keeps me getting on with the day and life -tonight is no different,  so I'm gonna take...