malibumark

Was in an awful state this morning to make it worse I was behind the iconostasis I decided to ask myself to wonder how other people were feeling it made me feel better sometimes just putting...

What I’ve been also thinking about is that not everyone is meant to couple up and have children. Artists churn the atmospherics and conditions going on in a culture and they churn out art for the...

I was going about the work here today down at church. Come down while it's still dark outside and set up the church with candles and charcoal. I was seeing this and saying to myself it's just 'day in...

I had a long day - and though I got mucho done - I feel very unwound now.Unwound in the sense that my mental variability has me feeling like I needhelp. I called and left a voicemail for my therapist...

Thanks for being good to me you guys.A few of the sisters were really flip and bitchy with me tonight. Being here and dealing with that daily has been an education. I’m more able to cope with...

I've had a fever for a couple of days now - coughing, sore throat, aches, chills etc..I was kind of rolling over at first (like a kid - not knowing what to do - looking to cut corners - wanting...

Something about my day has me rattled. I had to take this visitor who has been here with us for over a monthout in the city.or rather I was asked to take her out while I did my personal errands.She's...

For the way my illness has affected me is to experience extremeisolation and alienation and not a really good sense of co existence with others.That's how it was in the beginning of my journey - when...

I thought about all the confusion and yearning within me this morning. It was a little more intense than usual. I thought about it and marveled at those who ‘stay on track’ in life. I then...

I took myself out for a glass of red wine at the pub today. I had a snack and a Diet Coke as well.I'm trying to mind my intake but I was really'up for' some cookies and so I thought that I'd stop at...

I'm starting to see my vulnerability at times and I'm not having guiltiness or upset about it (like im not perfect enough). I'm starting to see it in others too, and methinks it's perfectly natural....

....and motivated.Last night I felt rejected by my family for whatever reason. Not being cool ? Or I don't know.It's echoing in my brain this morning and I just need to toss itaside. I know we can't...

It was a very small assembly of only a few nuns and me during dinner and evening services tonight but it was really, really lovely.