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It’s been an adventure but fun. Missed the connecting flight so I’m in Chicago until 7pm for the next possible flight since 11am. Very proud of myself though. I realized I had enough miles on AA...

i find myself caught up in my needs tonight - or at least I was -I kept talking to myself about knowing that I have a lot of desiresbut also the knowledge that if followed those desires could lead...

I know this title may sound really childish - but it's an important realization for me and or just good reminder about howI was unaware of my thinking.I was taking care of Blue earlier. He really...

I got the worst haircut tonight..I really wanted to lookgood for going home to LA for Christmas - the guy who cut my hair was absolutely bizarre. He botched my beard trim too.Uggh! haha!Anywaysas I...

I think that in my drastic turn around in  growing, where I realized I needed to be self responsible and then also interdependent, I kind of blocked out in my mind my own agency of decision making....

There's a band of feral 'mouser' cats who live outside the barn and chicken coop. We feed them food scraps but I bought a bag of food for them for Christmas as it is bitter cold here. Very happy I...

Love is out there. We’re all different people so it comes each with a different flair or spin to it.I’m back at St. Nina’s, humbled but happy. I sobbed into Blue’s belly because I love him so...

Things aren't going so well where I am right now. I'm starting to feel trapped and in danger. I'm sure the elder and others are sleeping comfortably and have no care for the fact that I don't want to...

I lose my way mentally so much. So often. I become in the moment and feel bereft of spirit for anything beyond the momentum of life.i was sitting here looking at the elder and the bishop as...

I stayed alone tonight and yes I was complaining to myself. So I came out of my room to be with the others in the living room. I just came to the thought that we’re each kind of lonely on the path...

I had a good morning. I woke up easily at 5am - and immediately went aboutmy business on my phone...paying bills and checking texts...I accidentally shut my eyes and fell back to sleep until 555am....

I had a really nice day. I got up late and then was in time for communion down at church.I did my chores after liturgy and then I had a couple of cups of coffee. I went to paraklesis (sp?).Then went...

i wish we could have spoken today - my therapist and I - but important things (like my broken tooth and the parishioner's teeth)had to be taken care of. So we both went to the dentist which is 1 hour...