malibumark

The 'instant' transfer to Oklahoma really is a lot to deal with for me. It might cause me to sever ties with the community. It all feels like I have to reinvent my life once again (it’s putting...

It's weird sometimes I picture the kind of life I'd like to have. Realistically with the few pleasures and treasures I can afford, I still wax romantic about building a life that is somehow...

I hope you guys can schedule in some pure fun for yourselves sometime soon.Things are good here. Just mindfully aware of my responsibilities and thinking it's also real important to make time for...

I've been sent to Oklahoma to serve as priest for a while. Not my choice.I'm giving it a week, Holy Week. I'm coming to another understanding today though. I've been mentally going back and forth...

Notes that I wrote yesterday:I’m getting ready to take off. I see so much of my Penchant for philosophy and living in philosophy as a passion to now heal from. Living in philosophy and power...

our jobs or our paths in life of experiencing humanityare kind of in flux - we're ever growing betterat our professions, simply through experienceof it and learning daily and we're also becoming...

I had been struggling with my need to explain my life rationally juxtaposed with my religious life yesterday. I was feeling at wits end at the time. Not in a panic but just very weak and holding on...

Again. I can't keep staring at the closed door aka the hurt.when I am more relationship oriented I tend to become or have codependent tendencies.I have got to remember to be self responsible and...

splintered mind but keep on keeping onI know we each face hurdles for getting our work done and surviving. I'm thinkingabout how we've all talked to each other about our challenges and have supported...

here are some notes that have inspired me both yesterday and today.I've already shared them elsewhere I just wanted to share them here.---Just heard 'confession.' It’s the 5th or 6th time I have....

I tend to have only so much bandwidth for focusingon conducting services. If it's early morning - when I am getting over my medsor if it's services after evening meal - it's like I keep a focus and...

I've decided I am going to try and not phone or email my therapist over weekends.I am going to write my issues here and then pull them together for when we meet.I feel like that is fair. My cousin is...

having one of those mornings - no real plan aheadit's a dynamic I have to remind myself and not a form to fill - just a morning of commitments to the monastery - I realize as I go to sleep and wake...

I wrote this last night:the fear of the unknown can be a big thing. It has fueled a lot of my innards.I mean - the fear of it - I might be open to discovery -it's just the bends in the road along the...