sorry

I am sorry to be writing again.  The depression that started yesterday is back. I went to work this morning and started to get depressed there, so much so that I nearly vomited.
I guess I am feeling old and without a lot of options. Then again I could appreciate my age somehow and how far I have come with the illnesses I have faced. I could be thankful for what I have. I am feeling comforted by being in this "internet space" with this community.
There's a great hollow feeling that can be really bllinding and I guess with you all out there and with the people in my day to day life I can somehow manage this. For some reason I feel really alone and yet I think we all go there because in fact each of us is alone and that existential angst is just magnified by the ill feelings and the lack of energy.
I don't know what's in store for me, I live in this group home and I have a job. I feel like quitting and doing whatever I feel like.
I'll buy a digital camera on Friday and hopefully give myself a new hobby to work on. Today is not a good day but I feel somewhat better for expressing it here.
Thanks for reading if you have.