lost in the day, lost in myself
I really appreciate all of your feedback over my last journal.
This journal is just about how I came home from work - and went from
feeling energized and purposeful - to the space in this house which I have
called in the past to myself "The bad kharma corner." It's not really fair to call it
that - but it's a place where everyone has a kind of infermity - and I need to be
caring - which I try to be. I just get lost in the soup here.. I tried to keep
up a sense of goal - but I just get so lost - and today I got lost an angry too.
I just felt sick. I started to eat a lot - and just started to watch an old movie on TMC.
God give me the strength to understand what I can control and be ok with what I can't.
I don't know if I am meant for more directed employment but I think I just need
to keep taking care of what I need to take care of. Deep breaths and just get back to watching the movie.
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Hi. I hope your prayers are answered.
thanks IWBD!
Sorry things are so tough at home. Does your sense of identity change from work to home? Home sounds triggering. I think accepting our limitations are hard. Everyone has limitations, its how we deal with them that's important I suppose. Idk how often you do this, but a lot of the time we really do need to put ourselves first. Like you say, accepting what is, and taking good self care.
Tc and be kind to yourself Mark. I hope you find some peace xx
Thanks Ruby. I think I do need to focus on the acceptance theme as much as possible.
On my own I have realized I can feel so ungrounded - and moved to reacting to my instability with
greater intensity and focus. When I am at work - I have a focus - and and outlet for all my energy - and so yes. Even though I may have moments at work I can still get along and exorcise that energy and keep happylike that way. So thanks for your response. I was just thinking about acceptance and your message reinforces that!! :) peace!