Happy New Year!

happy new year!


 

after I journaled last night i left a voicemail for my therapist and i talked to my Dad too.

I was positive - but I have to tell you after the call with Dad

I saw a darkness in me. I didn't like it- I woke up this morning at

5a and ran down to services to set up. As I conducted services I felt like such a piece

of shit, I just threw myself into services. And that helped,

But then after services was morning meal - and I just felt like

a piece of shit - 

As I was getting out of my car back at the rectory - I just thought

and realized "well you've got to talk yourself through this" -

I knew that everyone had a dark side - but now it was like though I knew it objectively

but now

I knew that subjectively -- I struggled and yet I knew I had to get myself through it -

I thought to be my own best friend

and I need to carry myself along and so I felt better,

the focus is on the supportive

relationship with myself - and it all helped! 

things are good!

Happy New Year guys!!

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Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

Happy New Year sweetie

I'm so glad that you were able to talk yourself through it and it helped!

Big hug...xo
gr8ful1
gr8ful1

Happy New Year! Sorry you had a rough start but glad you worked it out. Being your own best friend is a great idea! I’ve always liked the advice to tell yourself what a friend would say to you when you are beating yourself up.. Sleep well!
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Jan and Susan!!
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine

Happy New Year Mark....hugs
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Bob!
beckyp
beckyp

I put positive Bible verses on index cards and read them every night. They build me up. I used to do it and read them 3 times a day and that really help with my negative thinking.

Have a happy new year Mark.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks Becky! HAPPY NEW YEAR!