seeing myself in context now

I am learning that in whichever business you work in or live in there is

a context and a strictness maybe or a code of conduct - for political

or social reasons - there's a politic to it - but also there's

the wonderful connects you get to have too. I am learning to not

expect my connections to be perfection -

I am understanding like I have talked about in recent journals about

passions manifesting in certain ways - and so it's probably what I am

learning to try and understand that it doesn't just happen to me - it exists

in 'people'.

I am also starting to see myself in this context here at the monastery in the aspect

that the strictness of the environment has had a very rough effect on my body.

I want to change that - Here's it's very much the life of the mind - 

but I also know that I have been experience my 57 YEAR OLD BODY in

a new light - I am realizing the responsibility I have to keep it up for the years to come.

I feel like I can relate here now in a better way.

(SORRY I WROTE A BEAUTIFUL JOURNAL AND I LOST IT - THIS ONE IS A PIECING TOGETHER OF THE MEMORY OF IT)