Trip’s end

So grateful for this trip. When we all met it was as though somethings have changed but somethings stayed the same. It’s wonderful that we can all be evolving and growing as individuals but still be able to come back together and love one another. I know my Dad is concerned about my choices, but asserting my choice, like I have, has made me grow into a full adult. Understanding community now, humanity better and also understanding a family’s love. I’m looking for part time work in February to get some more resources coming in. I have a financial goal for the year that will be definitely achieved with work:)

I’ve realized I can’t live in my own world but I can in understanding that we each are managing that kind of dynamic. I’m starting to see that I’ve been wanting to live in grace but it’s a grey area. We have to get on in life with loved ones and strangers. As one interview went, we all have to find our own music in the world that keeps us going. I saw my Dad’s vulnerability with one of his oldest friends last night on the phone. Still wanting to come from a place of hermetic strength. But I think he knows this friend too and how he is in the world. I know they love each other. Dad is his rock. 

My own way of life is coming to me clearer too. I’m lucky guys, I will miss my therapist, as I need to transition to therapy in Maryland, terribly but things will be ok....

and just another thought, 

sometimes when I’m around someone I love, it’s like I want to make that person’s dream to come true… does that make sense? I want to give them the space and happiness to do what they do best. It was that way with a family member but then that inclination was taken advantage of. I understand though it can’t always be a point of connection. I just took it with a sense of humor and like water off a ducks back and ...next! Lol I know I ask a lot of my friends and family too. It is so poignant when those connections happen.
I’m learning to get on with the athleticism of stuff!:)