scrambled eggs

I went to work this morning, and afterwards I came home..did some chores and laundry

and then also indulged in my Saturday (or Caturday in this house hehe) party here.

I ate a kind of antipasto plate...cheeses, meats, olives and then drank some beer too.

I watched some tv, mostly the Smithsonian channel...I love that channel. I like PBS too

but I didn't watch PBS since they're having their fundraisers weekends the past few weeks - and the

schedule of programs they have on during those drives I tend to not like so much.

So, I played with Blue some.. he was very upset today for some reason. I figured out

that he just wants me to get down on the floor and be with him. He likes to play as well.

But sometimes he doesn't need anything beyond me just being on the floor with him hanging out

in like a Lion's pride kind of way. When I do that, he looks at me with that Cheshire cat grin

and cleans his forearms and just becomes calm. He's my baby, so I'll keep caring for him as he needs!

I had a depressive episode today as well - I'm struggling with finding the answers to it - struggling to understand it - struggling to find my own calm by finding an "answer."

I guess I am struggling to find an answer I can be happy with - and maybe that's part of the rub for me...

But actually, I think I am getting there - coming to understand my own nature.. what I need.. what I want..

to reinforce me when I am at home and how I like to live my day..when not at work.

So, just sending greetings and wishes out to you guys... good kharma and have a good Saturday (Caturday :) ) night!

Mark