setting expectations

I am at home. It's Sunday morning. I woke up later than usual today,

got a Starbucks, whatsApp'd my sister and then came home. I folded laundry, had breakfast,

washed up, showered and dressed and was in touch with family and friends.

I did the weekly grocery shopping too and now all is put away, little chores done.

Focused on Blue for a bit and he is being his usual cute but royal self lol.

It's the weekend and I am still enjoying the afterglow of having volunteered

yesterday. It felt like something kind of sacred. 

Anyways I signed up to do it again, next Saturday - at the same location...

I've kind of come to a standstill here at home now though, later morning that it is.

Run out of things to do...

I don't really know what to do with myself and for the most part staring at the TV

and Iphone is starting to annoy me.

My therapist and I were talking about managing expectations. It's true and a really useful

idea right now, right here. I may have some things planned for this weekend, like yesterday

and later this morning (soccer match on tv with my Dad)

....but I think the reality IS that when I am alone on the weekends -

I do need to make plans but it's ok that I don't and I AM starting to see that I can do either and not

freak out - and so when I don't have total

plans - I run out of things to do - I won't let it make me feel powerless - it's just the nature

of my choice - I can deal - and then I start to look for other things I can do...

I am inspired of what to add to the 'to do' list... which I have....

but the nature of it - is neither good nor bad.. it just IS. I can spend the weekend alone

but it does set up challenges and boredom - My therapist talked about how she has

an early morning conference call EVERY MONDAY morning - She said "Her Monday's

are always a SHARP START!" and I appreciate that -

Her advice really is sinking in and making sense. Expectation for the nature of the thing

can help me make sense of my day.

So, that's where I'm at today... I'll leave for the family's house at 1045a -

And I'll plan to do those new additions to the 'to do' list in the coming week.

Grateful and writing these posts really is another one of my 'go to' things when

I've run out of things to do. But it's good - the expression is a savior!