agency with your feelings

something i realized today while at work is that we are all telling our stories every day.

whether we are literally telling our stories, or in any kind of another way - by 'the way' we do all sorts of things.

For me that sparked the realization to choose how I react to my work and my feelings

while I am at work......Work went well today...and then I drove home... played with Blue

and made lunch.... Hopped in the shower and dressed and went for Starbucks.

I was feeling really strong - and was reminding to myself of what I was saying to myself in response to my feelings

as I went along the day. I felt the AGENCY to choose and so then decided. My physical feelings

were intense. ...My emotional feelings were big - but it was like I was choosing and making up what to do along the way...

I am no robot but I just chose how to deal with each situation - each stage  - and it was 'how to tell my story' as a reaction to my feelings that gave awareness and inspiration..

Saying NO to choosing victimization, but instead chose a creative solution, perspective and so a source of effective solution even if my feelings persisted with all the vagueries I knew I was in charge...and not out of my depth.

Later today, as I had spent the majority of the day alone, I was wishing that I had some 'we' -

so much of my alone time is taken up by meditations but I started to realize I wanted

time with my family.... There's a gentle balance of things for me. I think I said it in a recent post

with a quote by Mary Oliver about Loving yourself and then loving others. So I am generating

my own version by saying - sometimes I need 'we' time - and yet I can become so part

of 'we' that I forget my personal life and own boogie. But I think in realizing this 'agency' to chose

it's helping me see myself and what I need in life and also how we're all writing our story in

how we choose to react and doctor ourselves along the way. It will get me back on track

and so it's the end of the day now and though my news programs I usually watch are on 

right now I think I might lift some weights for a spell.

Sending peace and good vibes.

Mark