malibumark

I realized I tend to think in terms of ideals in terms of behavior and outcomes,in myself, in others and in situations that I am involved with.Real life has taught me I need to adjust my sights when...

I was going along today, after writing the last journal. I thought to myself of the frustration that I mentioned withmy mental health challenge but then also thought to remind myself about something....

Experiencing a lot of mental turmoil and fracturing today while conducting service. There was no center to my mind, scrambled eggs. I felt awful, angry and again revisiting the observation why I have...

 Yesterday I kept saying to myself I can't wait to get into service, I had nervesabout socializing and just about everything. And serviceseemed so inviting and safe to be wrapped up in the sacred...

I was driving into Frederick earlier, on my way to get a haircut and a beard trim,and I started to think about the last journal entry I made. About how I was seeing through the storm - accepting...

I was serving today like most mornings but had a very hard time mustering the enthusiasm for a vibrant presentation.. i wasn't being lazy, i just couldn’t summon the control or strength. Reading...

My mind is very creative. If I'm not immersed in work, a group activity or then in the process of taking care of life, I know my mind will 'act up' if I don't have a creative project. I'm realizing...

hi peeps, just wanted to say hello and have a good day.Services went well and then we had morning mealand then we had a special "trisagion" or service for repose,which I conducted too.That went well....

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I ordered a pizza and I've been in my room with a scented candle lit and the radio on. Me and Blue are now relaxing on my bed. The forces of habit, of being constantly engaged and in demand here at...

the last load of laundry is in the washer. I've trekked downto the dumpsters and back. My room has the perfume overwhelmingly of TIDEnow - could be worse!! hehe It's a good fresh scent. I am just...

got my sheets in the wash - vaccumed the room and cleaned out the kitty litter next up will betaking all the trash down to the dumpsters about nearly half a mile away...walking LOL.I'm tired already...

It's funny, I just realized here at the monastery, everyone is kind of in their own zone. They're focusing on their work and their practice (with god). It's finally making sense to me...and I can see...