The philosophy along the way

I'm certainly seeing the pattern within myself to muse on philosophy

along the path of life. Hard times have me created a consolation of philosophy.

You guys have seen this with a lot of my journals.

I contacted one of the fathers in Germany today and he sent back a very philosophical

outlook of his. I proposed the same question to my friend the Eldress and she wrote

back a very succinct emotions and psychological understanding which tends to be

my own outlook as well.

Right now, as petty or as trivial as this may seem, I am arguing with myself about

the amount of money I have been spending and the amount of money I have in my bank

account. There are two things that I really want to buy to have in my room. The trouble is

that I cannot buy them on credit which is my only chance for affording these two things now.

I think of the nut of my financial life - which I keep tabs on in my head. I have to rein myself

and decide that when I have the money in my account then I will buy them. Right now I am eager to 

spend but it makes no sense to do so. I know it's hard, sometimes I just 'want things.'

But deciding this has me feeling much better about steering my own ship...viably.

Sending peace and good strength.