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I'm balancing on the edge of making a decision to commit to somethingbigger in a social way in my life.I have very much realized that I am very lonely and yet holding onto the 'missionto fill the...

the Human Resources of life are sometimes what I need..Whether that's praying with my friend the Abbess or talkingto my support group here or reaching out to my therapist.I think we all need a voice...

Mary Oliver said it very well “I got saved by the beauty of the world.”I have had moments when my condition told me nobody cared about me, nobody loves me.And yet learning to challenge those...

going to bed now.. just back from my parents' house.it was a mellow, low key afternoon.they are forever very busy and so when i go there I've learned to just stay mellowand just be helpful. I...

I was having ruminations galore before I left for the Treepeople event todaybut decided to carry through with it for it was a commitment and put my best foot forward.As I met up with the event leader...

Good morning. Woke up and ate some Joe's O's and then had a pot of coffee in bed. Blue is on top of my lap and we're watching Smerconish on CNN.I go to help the Treepeople in a little while.Happy...

I told my therapist today that I feel like 'I am in the place I am supposed to bein life.' She said 'that's a really good place to be philosophically.'I came home from work today - I did good work......

It’s weird I laid down tonight to go to sleep And tonight the voice was saying’what is my relationship’? And I remembered how in grammar school they taught us the questions of’who what where...

......just for myself, my own being, I am starting to see there are a couple of realities.I get very fulfilled by working, it fills me with a sense of productivity and adult to adultcontact.. I am...

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the other day I met my brother for a quick refreshment outside the nearby Erewhon market.It was really good to see him. He introduced an idea to me when we were talkingabout a relationship. He said...

I'm battling today, as usual I suppose...I found myself experiencing some anxiety as I was and still am alonetoday (but Blue is here!!)and I thought to reach for a calming perspective "well I get...

it seems I am forever trying to understand my natureso that I can live with myselfI think there will always be mysteries aheadbut the lattitude or flexibility for being readyfor the rough spots or...

it ocurred to me that I've been living with this sense that "I am almost there.."Almost finished almost ready to have a life...When in fact I've decided to just enjoy stuff instead.I remember Arfie...

Here I am. I've got so much to be grateful for and indeed I am starting to relax. I put on the AC. I lit a scented candle and am about to turn on some classical music.But just a little  while ago I...