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I had an episode this morning, where I didn’t know or remember any of the things that I had previously thought about that would keep me steady. I felt at the whim of my passions, my emotions and...

I had some good inspiration tonight, I was facing the same old tortures within me. A few moments of peace and then a twist and turmoil within my mind. But recently I’ve realize that even at moments...

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I wrote this to my Dad this morning.Hey Dad, being here at the monastery with all the different people, each here for different reasons has helped me see that we’re each in a kind of zone in our...

I came back to my room tonight. Texted a few peopleand have been spending time with Blue.I started to wonder what to do tonight - and I couldn't imagine it.I recognized and included the stress...

Hi guys! Things are really good here, I just wanted to get in touch. I feel very awake about my surroundings. Everyone is kind of in their own zone here, at the monastery, everyone has their own pain...

I was behind the iconostasis today and I was graspingat having some kind of orderliness to my person -and yet i had a mix of anger and rage and nervousnessand then too a saving grace of a focus on...

I'm tired but not that tired- just having troubling thoughts about my mother that comecreeping in much of the time when I start to feel self sufficient and directed in life.I know we all have issues...

I know I’m not stupid but I am unstable, as are many of the nuns, and being altogether in this life affirming and celebrating environment is something positive. Though it’s rigid at times, it’s...

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I learned something important about myself today. A therapist once told me that I’m capable of forming attachments, and that idea really helped me understand my feelings better. It gave me a sense...

I was thinking how in life you kind of also need some detachment - interpersonally - it's like an invisible boundary -it can't be about my boundary alone and so for me it's coming in the formof...

thankful for today's conversation with my therapist.I really let down my hair and it was so needed and welcome. I came away from the conversation extremely unwound in a new relaxed sense.I felt so...

It’s the end of the day. Getting all into the feels in my cell. Classical radio on, Blue nearby and a couple candles lit! Have a Happy Sunday tomorrow my friends!

I realized something important today. My day off really inspired somepositive sense in mind and body and spirit - I felt a new enthusiasm to takecare of my body and I was happier as well.When I went...