valgal18
Status: other grandma in hospital and grandpa just passed away
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so i've been feeling pretty good lately and my family and i celebrated Christmas for 3 days.....Christmas Eve with my dad's side....Christmas Day with just mimmediate family and then yesterday with m...
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feeling kinda "meh" today........not feeling good, not feeling bad......kinda like being numb, but not because i can smile and feel emotions......**sigh**......Christmas is close...and that means...
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so since yesterday i started feeling really numb and wanted to cut and then i crawled into bed and just started crying my eyes out and i wanted ot cut even more......i wanna fell SOMETHING....ANTHING...
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i fele really depressed.....i'm pretty sure becasue the anniversary of my second rape in coming up in late january and i can't push it away any more.....i can't cope with it by using sex...
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so tomorrow is my appointment with my psychiatrist....and my dad is coming with.....i kinda wish t was earlier than 4 in the afternoon........strangely i'm not over anxious.....i mean, yeah, i'm...
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soooo my parents and brother talked in the basement last night.....i was left to finish dinner.....in our house the basement is on the way to the kitchen....well the basement door was open and i...
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i keep on playing these different scenerios in my head about what could happen with my uncle......getting a drink and him coming to be by me and then raping me in the garage where no one could hear...
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my therapist and i came up with what to say to my uncle.....and i'm ready to say it, but i'm also terrified!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my therapist said to not go anywhere with him alone...
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everyone is telling me that it's wrong for my uncle ot do these things that are innapropriate.....but i feel that becasue it's family it's okay.....but friends are saying it's NOT okay......i don't...
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i had a terrific weekend!!!!!!!!!! i went to my uncle's house and we baked cookies....guess how many pounds....523!!!!! POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) it was sooooo much fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
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ya know i'm getting sick of these stupid dreams......AGAIN J was in this one.......so it was like i was watching a movie.....two girls were kidnapped from a party by two disney villains.....and they...
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so yesterday when my mom came home she asked,"so what does ******/your therapist think about you switching ot once a month??" and i said,"she's gonna talk to dr. ********/my psychiatrsit and we'll...
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so i have 4 classes and next week is finals week!!!! WOO-HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i figuered out yesterday that ALL my finals are on tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's a lot to study for, but i should be...
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so one of my abusers name is J......well his name STARTS with a J so i'll just use that......so in my dream, i was with at least 3 other women who were used by a man for sex......as i was....and we...
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so as i previously posted my parents want me to cut down or stop seeing my therapist and see a new one or only see her once a month......i talked to my therapist and she said that she occassionaly...
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