valgal18
Status: other grandma in hospital and grandpa just passed away
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last night i felt really sick after eating all my snacks and meals like i'm supposed to, so i decided to restrict today.....i slept in so i wouldn't have a lot of time where i'd hafta stare at food...
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uhhhhh.......my stomach feels sooooooo full!!!!!!!!!!!! like it hurts because it's so full!!!!!!!!!!! i don't feel good......i ate too much today....WAY too much......and ED's voice is in the back of...
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so i'm making myself eat today....i made myself eat a small part of my normal breakfast-i was running late anyway-i made myself eat my morning snack even though my stomach said i wasn't...
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i should probably call my support system and tell them that i'm struggling, but i don't think i will....see i made biscuits and i make myself eat them....well i don't make myself eat them, because i...
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i have this irrational thought that i KNOW is irrational....but i feel like it'd be better to restrict than to eat....i think it'd be so much easier.....i wouldn't hafta worry about food or...
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so when my mom was here we went out to eat a lot.....i restricted yesterday AND today......i feel like i need to punish myself for eating out a lot....i should've at least made healthier choices, but...
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so today is my birthday and i'm feeling really good!!!!!!!!!!!! my mom left this morning, so it was kinda sad....but i had a really fun time with her and everything....when i was drying my hair i saw...
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my birthday is Wednesday and i'm really excited.....my parents are coming today and then tomorrow we're gonna celebrate.....my grandma is comnig too and i'm a little worried and anxious.....my...
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i went to the doctor today for my sinus infection and got some meds thankfully!!!!!!! i am sooooo happy that i went there!!! got some good meds.....but before i went in to the exam room the nurse...
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i'm sick again....i can't remember a time when i've felt worse....m nose is running like crazy, i have a headache-no doubt from sinus pressure, a cough, a tight chest, i have trouble breathing, get...
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i am so fat!!!!!!!!! i hate the fact that i'm so fat and that i hafta restrict to be skinny......i HATE that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't like myself.....i give great advice and i can never accept it...
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since last night and stuff i've had urges to cut....i feel like i need to punish myself for being so weak and for dropping out of school in the fall.....and recently when i've felt bad and feel like...
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so i went to a deaf coffee chat tonight.....there weren't people that i knew there.....so i met some people who are students at m community college and they're gonna be in the same program as me in...
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i was thinking about my ED and i've been trying to pinpoint when it really started.....i remember when i was 18 and taking some classes at the coomunity college.....i wouldn't eat anything until...
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so today at work when we were switching shifts i mentioned that i had a doctor's appointment on my birthday.....and then i was texting one of my workers who was working and she asked when my...
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